Aaron Proffitt

It has been two weeks since the last time I posted something…oh the humanity! Sometimes I just don’t feel like writing a blog. I write all the time. I spent six hours today writing a Bible study. Part of my job includes correspondence of the e-mail, text message, facebook, and twitter variety. Writing is a huge part of my life. Writing blogs really isn’t. But today I must share what’s on my mind and on my heart..

Time really does go by though. Here we are in November, the month that Ashlee and I have dreaded for exactly one year now. You see, it was last November, the 15th to be exact, that we had to say goodbye to our little Aaden. I sat with Drew last evening for an hour watching videos from just one year ago of Aaden’s entrance into the world, his appearance at Aletheia H’burg’s chilly chili fest, his first trick or treating experience, and some other random footage that we got of him. How precious and priceless that footage is. Never did I think those few moments we captured on film would be some of his only moments on this earth. I had to reinforce to Drew that Aaden is with Jesus now. I could tell that Drew was so perplexed as to why this little baby who caused his mom a lot of pain but then brought subsequent joy to her face was not with us any more. He kept saying “mommy’s belly” as if to think he crawled right back into his mom and will come out as Asher. I told him that Asher is his other little brother and that one day, he and Asher would be able to be with Aaden again. That was probably the most difficult conversation I’ve ever had with my two year old. There is no way he understands but I think he is starting to get it a little.

Our family will always be incomplete, even as the baby’s keep coming (well, we’ll see after the next little one comes along how Ashlee feels about having more)…not until we are all in heaven will we be complete as a family again. That is a reality that is tough to handle some times and one that I don’t think Ashlee nor I will ever get used to. But the show must go on right?

I was really comforted by Psalm 25 today. It just so happens that this Psalm is the next in line as we continue our series in “Crash Course” this coming Sunday night at Aletheia Tampa (shameless plug I know). The basic premise of the Psalm is that David had no problems in allowing God to be the Lord of his life. What I mean is that David trusted in God so much, and knew that God’s promises were so sure, that he did not hesitate to completely depend and rely upon God. That is what lordship is. We have to make God the supreme ruler of our lives. He must be given the control and authority in order for total dependence to take place. This cannot be done half way because it is then that we serve a half-god, who we believe shed His blood for our sins, but is not capable to help us with every decision in life or help us through every circumstance in life. David seemed to master this at the right time always. I hope to do the same.

As Ashlee and I continue to go through the most difficult season in our lives, we are attempting to fully rely on our Christ as Lord. He is worthy of that. And quite honestly, we can’t survive without that happening. Take it from me, you don’t want to have to go through finding your perfectly healthy five week old son not breathing at 6am in the morning on your own, without Jesus being your Lord. Without my Lord, I would not want to go on. I praise Him for His faithfulness and I am counting on it in the coming weeks.